Narcissit? Who me?

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Sudden thought.

So remember when you were a little person ( like a boy or girl) and you thought about what it would be like to be all grown up. for me being a grown up was around the age of 16. That was the age of my sister who I idolized and also looked after me a whole heck of a lot, as well as the character Kelly Ripa played on All My Children (which I just mentioned today that I used to watch everyday.) So sadly when I finally matured to the ripe old age and felt no different, and no more grown up than I felt when I would report on the happenings of Pine Valley to my sister, I agreed that I would feel grown up later on. Like when I finished high school.

But that just didn't happen. WHen I graduated high school I felt more nervous insecure and lost than I did when I was a hormone ravaged 16 year old. I had my whole life ahead of me, but not in the fun way, I had my whole life ahead of me and I had to start making decisions for myself, and I had to actually work towards something. Both ideas I found hard to swallow!

So I put off becoming a real life fully realized human being until I had finished my secondary education.

And if you've read any of the really whiney blog you would know that I have recently graduated from school ( or I guess not too recently...) and I feel nothing like a grown up. I have a job but not a real career, and well, I have just been kind of hanging in limbo for that last while waiting for some relevant and inspiring feeling to come rushing through me and I suddenly feel like, as I have always imagined, a real live grown up.

Tick tock.

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