Narcissit? Who me?

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

It's not all you, it's me. Really.

A year ago I felt that I was on an even level with the majority of my friends. Now the begining of a new (school) year has started and I find myself, suddenly, behind.

Now, don't get me wrong. I love everyone of my friends, and I share in their accomplishments. I am the first with a congratulations, a card, or hug. I wish everyone of them the best in the entire world. But I also wish it on me too. I don't mean to be selfish but I would like a share of the wonders life has in store. Maybe this is just me not seeing my own silver lining, or is could be the onset of my seasonal depression, but I am just not feeling. I am just feeling left behind.

A list of things I haven't accomplished in the past year has the capability of filling volumes. For instance I haven't purchased a home, gotten engaged, started a new relationship, gone overseas, started my career, or anything. I mean I guess I could, if forced, pick a few things out of the past year that could pose as an accomplishment, but I that is just not the direction my head is taking today.

So in conclusion, congratulations everyone. I wish I was you.

(p.s.) Sorry this is a really whiney post.

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