Narcissit? Who me?

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

I am really worried.

Okay so my self-help books say I shouldn't sweat the small stuff, and that I should only focus on the positive, and that I draw in everything I receive with my thoughts, and that the only thing we should be ashamed of is our bodies, but none of them tell me what to do when I am worried.

I am in my final semester of school. (I mean I could go longer, but why? I haven't any idea what to do with the degree I am going to get, why get another?) And I don't know what to do with my life.

I am really worried because I don't know what to do, or where to go. Ideally I would just stay here, be independently wealthy and, like, volunteer. But then am I just standing still? Should I be moving forward? It would be so much easier making all of these decisions if I wasn't so crippled by what other people think of me. Oh, how I envy you, Angelina.

This came up today, when it was slipped into conversation that Roommate's girlfriend was moving in here in like three months. This made me nervous because I thought for sure I would be kicked to the curb (I wasn't) but there was also a feeling like, maybe I should be moving on. In the two years I have lived here 3 people would have come and gone, and I am the only one still hanging on. Is that bad? I don't know. I like it here. Also where else would I go?

Also I really need help paying for Europe. I would like someone to pay for it for me. And then I would like them to pay for an apartment for when I get back. Also new furniture. I need new furniture.

Why is life always to hard, for the most fabulous?


Scarlett Buttons said...

hey crazy... come live in my bed.

Jenn said...

Living in the same place for longer than two years isn't a bad thing, unless you're unhappy there, or if you can't afford furniture for a new place.